some reflections

been quite long since i posted. changed my blog to private. haha. so if u're here reading i must really trust you a lot:) just needed a place to share my thoughts and reflections without restrictions. so yep..

last paper tmr~ haha finally. it's open book. i really need an A. to save my ass. will mug after i finish this post.

lsm2251 was an interesting module. sadly i could find the drive to finish my final report which was 15% :( my macbook died and so did my report:( sigh. exam was today! it wasnt that bad a paper but i crapped out the whole essay. hope my mcq was ok. then i was quite proud of my graphs:) haha. essay qn was about how human impacts changes the climate change or nitrogen cycle or rate of biodiversity loss. haha the world is going to die some day man.. 21dec coming hahaha. at least im going for 2 chalets before that. not that bad:)

almost 2 years of fighting for my real dreams. haha was just listening to jung yong hwa's comfort song and had some reflections which triggered me to finally privatize my blog (which i have been considering to do since a long time ago) and write my realreal reflections. to let go my worries and have somewhere to express them so i wont explode and die or something. let out emotions and keep the logical side of me:) anyway.. i know it's being emotional and all. but i feel like i'm growing up too fast mentally.. it isn't a bad thing. it's a good thing in fact, so that i'll be prepared earlier, everyone's gona be there one day... but i feel it's a wee bit a bad thing. (childish thoughts) i feel different from others the same age around me. i feel more drive to achieve something more than just results an a degree. i feel i'm missing out many childish fun things like crazy illogical and emotional youth life that don't exactly help you in the future but give u mere memories. so is growing up faster a good or bad thing? ohwell. in the long run it's definitely a good thing. those childish fun things can also be done afterwards just that u need to have people at ur old age thinking the same way...

okay i don't know what i'm talking about. i just need to achieve something. i need people around me to believe that too. achieving things alone isn't all that good.

wish i could play music all day everyday..

okay back to statistics. i really need that A. on a happier note, i just got a free starbucks venti white chocolate mocha frappucino:))

rainy day~