i woke up at 6pm today. yes. not a typo. 6PM.
skipped breakfast(i alws do) and lunch. D: something's wrong with me. and thus. i didn't get to do DE tutorial in the end anyway =.= sheesh. tmr then =l im lagging like shit.. wtv.
was reading posts from last year.. and tags on the tagboard :/ kinda miss how things were and how i was last year. when i loved school so much.. when i always looked forward to school.. but now it's just.. weird and all. because perhaps i changed. or something. i have no idea. i'm just gona blame myself. it's easier that way.. im more comfortable being with band people than classmates now :/ i'm sorry.. s77. T.T i can't..
i really don't see how i can get As for A levels at all.. even music seems impossible.): i don't understand how.. there's such a high % of As every A lvl. sigh.. everytime i try my best doing something related to acads.. i don't get results. or.. i do halfway and get stuck, persevere, finally understand, carry on, and just keep getting stuck till i just give up.. am i that stupid?.. maybe i'm just gona be one of the minorities that don't get those As. people are talking about getting 8distinctions.. i dont even know if i can get 1 =.= wow so comforting:/ getting demoralized like shit from people around me. well.. does it actually matter?:/
band becomes an escape pathway from reality..
anw. google chrome can't see my blog's background. haha. sheesh. is there a setting that can change that?.__.
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